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Star Mario in this room you have a pile of apple pies Level: 163 Posts: 8921/9016 EXP: 56049615 Next: 438029 Since: 07-03-12 From: in a box Last post: 56 days ago Last view: 15 days ago |
thinking back on the whole political thing: I will admit that, in late 2016 and early 2017 (basically when I discovered politics and turned anticapitalist), I was unsufferable. I had that desire to make everybody realize how bad capitalism is, and all that.
I still strongly believe that capitalism needs to die, but over the years I have learnt that things aren't that simple for everybody (being part of an oppressed minority, or having to survive precarity, or depression, are things that can hinder your desire to get involved), and that being that kind of annoying prick doesn't serve any cause. so, one hand, it's true that I may have gone overboard with the political element in these days. although it was mostly contained to specific threads and not leaking all over the board, and people complaining that something is 'too political' is generally code for 'I don't like the political orientation' (see also: bigots screeching about LGBTI+ characters in games and such). on the other hand, I want this place to be a safe space for my fellows. when it comes down to minorities being discriminated against and harassed, there is no neutral position -- allowing bigots around will, at best, force the targeted minorities into hiding and staying silent, at worst, drive them out, effectively creating a safe space for bigots. this is where we have to be wary of far-Right language -- they try to claim that they are defending a reasonable 'neutrality', as opposed to the 'evil', overly radical minorities who want to force their agenda upon everybody, or something. it's important to keep in mind that the 'neutrality' they are defending is not neutral, and is an oppressive statu quo. for example: they screech against any sort of LGBTI+ representation aimed at children, but the statu quo is an overwhelmingly cishet world, to the point that being cishet is considered the norm. for example, try taking a stroll around your place and counting how many gay couples are visible vs how many straight couples are. this kind of shit is devastating because it is insidious and can feel appealing to uneducated, privileged crowds who like moderate 'reasonable' ideas. - aside from the political tangent: I appreciate your apologies there. admittedly, I was likely a tad harsh in the way I handled PaperplateismGuy's posts. Gimzie, on the other hand, pretty much deserved his ban. that fun thing happened a while back, where TMolter/Toms came out as a transphobe, and Gimzie followed suit. (also, don't you love when a kid living with his parents tries to give you life lessons by shitting on the poor? heh.) - the last part of your post reminds me, these people in the haxing/homebrew/emu scene, I also have respect for them, but also, some intimidation. prolly dating back from the days where I was some random noob who couldn't even speak English properly. even though I got better at all these things, those people are still much more skilled than me and my sloppy pile of self-taught skill. a lot of the admiration and intimidation has stayed with me. I'm also quite an introvert in general. for example, I wasn't particularly close to Near, but the times I talked with them, I can tell they were definitely not the kind of person certain people painted them as, and they were quite a cool person. now they have fallen to the subhuman trash from KiwiFarms & co. I regret not having talked more with them. so yeah I should prolly talk more with these other fine people... I always worry, though, that they're gonna reject me, that I'm wasting their time, that the conversation should be super meaningful to be worth having, all these things... regardless I appreciate your post, entirely. (heh I don't really know what to say, this is awkward ) I guess I can be glad I've had a positive impact on the life of some people, despite all the shit I've pulled. so, thanks! considering I sometimes struggle with depression and all... that means a lot to me. this place and the romhaxing/emu community also mean a lot to me. not just because I picked up these interests around 2007... during middle school I spent most of my days sitting through classes and getting ass-bored, and the remaining time trying to avoid getting bullied. high school was the same, without the bullying bit, but I still had little to no affinity with the people there, I was just... different. when I came back home, my sister was either watching her garbage teenage-girl shows, or talking to her friends on Facebook, both activities that she clearly separated from the family circle. to her, I was kind of the last-resort person, who you talk to when your cool friends are AFK. shitty family dynamics didn't help, but even to this day we aren't particularly close. my parents, well. dad was always so busy and I didn't want to disturb. mom's idea of small talk basically meant giving me a full questionnaire about my day (like I wanted to talk about that) when she wasn't actively putting her nose into my business and generally being an annoyance. the internet communities were the one place where I could exchange with friendly people, without feeling like a weird nerd (I always felt like what I was doing was way too advanced for my age and that I had to hide it from my peers to avoid getting the genius-kid label). so, this means a lot to me. hell, some of these people I talked with 10 years ago, I still talk to them. one of them came out as a trans girl in 2017 and that's what made me realize I'm also trans, too. my parents said that whatever I was doing was no more than some pointless hobby. that's quite some understatement of how much these communities have shaped me. I had fun haxing things, but, more importantly, I learnt programming skills, I figured out a bunch of things about myself, I shared all this with the community and met really cool people. I'm also fluent in English now. yet, it was somehow a bad thing that I spent so much time on the computer? bahahah. my life is completely different now -- I have been living on my own in Montpellier for 5 years, I have met really cool people in the squats and such, these people have supported me throughout my transition and depression and I can call them actual friends... despite how shitty it has been at times, these years have been the best in my entire life and I have zero regret. and yet, I am still attached to these online communities. to say, this is far more than a little hobby -- this is how much these communities mean to me. ____________________ NSMBHD - Kafuka - Jul melonDS the most fruity DS emulator there is zafkflzdasd |
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Star Mario in this room you have a pile of apple pies Level: 163 Posts: 8922/9016 EXP: 56049615 Next: 438029 Since: 07-03-12 From: in a box Last post: 56 days ago Last view: 15 days ago |
I like the forum for the permanence it offers, compared to Discord (or to trying to keep huge IRC logs, for that matter). I think it's nice to have both.
plus, it has certain sentimental value, considering it's been going for like 9 years now. anyway, sneak peek: I butchered LordFalcon's banner to make the server icon. ____________________ NSMBHD - Kafuka - Jul melonDS the most fruity DS emulator there is zafkflzdasd |
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Star Mario in this room you have a pile of apple pies Level: 163 Posts: 8924/9016 EXP: 56049615 Next: 438029 Since: 07-03-12 From: in a box Last post: 56 days ago Last view: 15 days ago |
the banner was made in Feb 2013
oh, by the way: https://discord.gg/NdfMUGWDPJ ____________________ NSMBHD - Kafuka - Jul melonDS the most fruity DS emulator there is zafkflzdasd |
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Star Mario in this room you have a pile of apple pies Level: 163 Posts: 8925/9016 EXP: 56049615 Next: 438029 Since: 07-03-12 From: in a box Last post: 56 days ago Last view: 15 days ago |
You can find us in the following chat channels:
Discord https://discord.gg/NdfMUGWDPJ IRC irc.badnik.net:6667 / irc.rustedlogic.net:6667 #kuribo64 The two channels are linked together by the bridge bot WarpPipe. KuriBot reports things in both places. ____________________ NSMBHD - Kafuka - Jul melonDS the most fruity DS emulator there is zafkflzdasd |
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Star Mario in this room you have a pile of apple pies Level: 163 Posts: 8926/9016 EXP: 56049615 Next: 438029 Since: 07-03-12 From: in a box Last post: 56 days ago Last view: 15 days ago |
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Star Mario in this room you have a pile of apple pies Level: 163 Posts: 8927/9016 EXP: 56049615 Next: 438029 Since: 07-03-12 From: in a box Last post: 56 days ago Last view: 15 days ago |
I like Summer and all, but, uh
my sleep schedule is fucked and that's likely from the heat I haven't even slept 6h (which is normally my bare minimum, I usually sleep more like 7-9h) and now it's early af and I have no idea what to do and don't even feel like sleeping more. fuck this. I think it's taking its toll on my mental health too. blarg. ____________________ NSMBHD - Kafuka - Jul melonDS the most fruity DS emulator there is zafkflzdasd |
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Star Mario in this room you have a pile of apple pies Level: 163 Posts: 8928/9016 EXP: 56049615 Next: 438029 Since: 07-03-12 From: in a box Last post: 56 days ago Last view: 15 days ago |
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Star Mario in this room you have a pile of apple pies Level: 163 Posts: 8929/9016 EXP: 56049615 Next: 438029 Since: 07-03-12 From: in a box Last post: 56 days ago Last view: 15 days ago |
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Posted by LeftyGreenMario we need to cancel the sun!!!!!!!!! ____________________ NSMBHD - Kafuka - Jul melonDS the most fruity DS emulator there is zafkflzdasd |
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